Reflections

Life has been pretty crazy since my last blog entry. It has been wonderful though. August has always been a weird/kind of sad month for me. I think that is because August is the month when camp end, people move for school, etc. It is so crazy that our first camp season with Jake as the official director is coming to a close. I never realized how much preparation goes in to camp until this year. We work on camp for  six months a year, but it is only eight weeks  long. It has been an adventure, but I think that this summer has helped me grow a lot. I did not want to come back because of how miserable last summer was, but I have realized that it is all in your attitude and approach that will determine the experience you have. And I am so glad I finally figured it out! It only took me six years of summer camp :)
This summer has been an adventure. It started out as a challenge trying to figure how to entertain Pongo, do my job, and go to school. But I think that staying so busy has helped me enjoy it so much! 
Today is my last day of my undergrad. I am panicked. I have no idea what I am going to do with my life. School has been my life for so long. I have actually learned to enjoy it. And now, here I am at the end of it. I always had this picture in my mind of what my life would be like when I finished my degree. Everything was going to be perfect and dandy. I would know what I wanted to do, I would find a job right off the bat. And now here I am. Not a clue what I want to do. Hence panic. I am just lucky that I have Jake who can help me figure out what it is that I should be doing! At the same time that I am panicked, I am so proud of myself. I know that I could have been a better student, I could have worked harder, gotten done faster, and on and on. But at least I have finished. There were so many times that I  was fed up, frustrated, and down on myself. I wanted to quit so many times. But I am so glad that I didn't.
In a few weeks, Jake and I are going on our first real vacation together. It only took us three years. I am so excited. Just us! And I love San Diego! I cannot wait. And we will even have a little spending money to help us have a  blast.
Life is always changing, and it is just about to get a little more complicated. But at least I can say that I accomplished something that not everyone does :)