A real post, with real feelings.

Today is another day. For me. I am lucky. I think this is good for perspective, but sad on so many other levels. It's a weird feeling, but its there. Mixed in with a whole boat load of sadness, numbness, and yet peace. Which is how I should be feeling. But I think the initial shock is still there. When that goes away, I think things will be better. I am glad that I get to be so lucky. That I have such a secure unwavering faith in things. That I have an incredible support system. That I don't have to wonder. I am just that lucky. I will miss you dearly, but I understand that this happened for reasons beyond me. <3